It's nice to be back in the 170s again. Even if it's 179.2!

I had to get a different bridesmaid's dress for next Saturday. Long story. The short part of it is that the dress is a size 10. I am still not a size 10. I can get it on, but its not stretchy like the other one I bought. The reason why I bought it is because it was the only one there, and I was running out of time (and I didn't want to spend a fortune). Since I bought it a month ago, i am already down 11lbs, so it's fitting a little better, but I don't feel great. Whatever, it's just one day of sucking and wearing uncomfortable suckyinny underwear.

I've been running again. Not like I was 2 years ago, but slowly getting back into it. Going to see an athletic therapist has helped me immensely. I have minimized my visits. I've only gone once since April. I needed a tune up last week, and he got me doing some new exercise since I have improved so much. I get the deep tissue massage and some serious stretching.The longest run I've done since I got back into it the last month is 5.4km. It was okay, a little tough and had to take a couple of walking breaks, but still, I did it! :)

I've been doing the clean eating thing too. I've recently become a little obsessed with Oxygen magazine and took out a bunch of back issues from the library. So much photocopying to do at work.

And that's about it for now. Tomorrow is weigh in day (oh yeah, I am still tracking points with wwonline.ca - I still think that works best for me)!

Wow, I have been eating Low GI since Saturday - no cheats. I just came back from a going away potluck for a co-worker, I was good. I had veggies, salads, and lean protein.. then I saw the homemade white bread - that was still warm. I had a small piece. sooo goood. I wasn't going to have any desserts, then I saw someone cut into the chocolate cheesecake, accompanied by chocolate covered peanu tbutter filled cherries. Holy smokes.. so I had a piece of that, and a gingersnap cookie, and some skittles.. then I had a piece of pizza... then I came upstairs to my desk, and I feel so frickin' weird. Really foggy and am really having a hard time focusing. I can't concentrate on one thing for too long, it makes me want to sleep.

Interesting. In a weird way, I am glad I did this so I know what this feels like.

It's weird. I am reading back from old entries. January 31, 2007. I was THRILLED with seeing 185.6 on the scale (I even threw in a YAHOO!!). This morning, I was so disgusted seeing that 185. It's weird how the mind works. 185 going down feels so much better than 185 going up.

It seems that I lost my final 27lbs between Feb 2007 and Feb 2008 to reach my goal weight of 158. I hope I can do it again. 30lbs in a year? Totally do-able, because I have done it. So, by March next year, I would like to be back around my goal weight. I'll even take 160-165. As long as I can fit into all those clothes I bought for my new body again.

I don't know if I feel depressed or inspired reading old entries. I mean, I was outside running for 30 minutes in the cold COLD February mornings, now that's dedication.. but that was also before my injury. I hate being plagued by injury. I really wanted to run the half marathon again this year, but there's no way. I have barely been running at all.

It's also interesting to see that I struggled with the same things that stress me out: feeling over worked and studying. And I can't get over the amount of support I got from you guys! Seriously, I can't thank you enough for all the positive comments and listening to my struggles. I don't think I could have done what I did without all of you!!

( Today's food and exercise )

This LJ is dedicated to my weight loss efforts. I started weight watchers July 2005. Please feel free to friend this LJ if you are interested in reading my daily food menu, exercise, water intake, recipes & other things weight related.

Record of weight since I started WW. .. I got lazy with this. It's only until April 2008.

Current Stats

Height: 5'7"

Highest Weight: 265ish

WW Start Weight: 258

Lowest Weight: 157.4

Current Size: 12/13 & M

Goal Weight: 158 new goal weight: 150

Weekly WI: Wednesday

Latest 'Official' Loss: -2.2 lbs

Plan: WWonline

Mini Goals
First mini goal: get down to 225 by October/05 (Hockey season) I want to be able to skate faster and stay on the ice longer.. First mini goal achieved Oct 17, 2005. 231.4 lbs.
2nd mini goal: 225 lbs by Christmas Eve.. Second mini goal achieved December 20, 2005. 225.2 lbs.
3rd mini goal: to get to Onederland.. Third mini goal achieved June 28, 2006.
4th mini goal: 190 lbs by January 18/07.. Fourth mini goal achieved January 11, 2007.
5th mini goal: get out of size 16 at Old Navy.. Fifth mini goal achieved April 14, 2007. Size 12!!
6th mini goal: 175 lbs by May 19th, 2007.. Sixth mini goal reached April 28, 2007. 175 on the dot.
7th mini goal: 165 lbs by October 31, 2007.. Seventh mini goal reached October 20, 2007. 164.8.
8th mini/end goal: get to my goal weight of 158 by my bday Jan 18th May 31st/08.. Goal achieved February 8, 2008. 157.4

Big-Goals
To get down to 158 lbs. (Reached 157.4 Feb 8, 2008)
To be able to run for 1 hour without stopping. (I ran my first 10K in 62 min Sept 2. Only 3 min of that was walking) .. finally ran an hour without stopping June 8th/08 .. then the following Sunday, I ran the half marathon in 2:11 without stopping!
To no longer shop at "fat girl" stores (because that is totally out of my comfort zone). I haven't been into a fat girl store in FOREVER. I don't think I would be able to fit into the clothes there anymore.

Ultimate Goal
To have my thighs not rub together. That is my definition of thin.

Wendie Plan
MapMyRun
Weights & muscles


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( June 7/06 )

I posted some pics of myself in a community over here, I guess I look more different than I thought. .. I posted another one too, because OMG, I look skinny. I did another post since I lost 90lbs, I had to share with everyone! .. Feb 8, 2008, I made goal!!

My progress photo post
My before & during photos

Points and measurements ( so I don't forget )

WI last night: 176.4.. down 3 lbs! YAY. I am stoked.. weighing in when it's not TOM is so much better.

I didn't do the wendie plan last week, I stayed within 23 points per day and only really induldged on the Saturday for our anniversary dinner. OMG we shared the BEST caramel hazelnut torte ever, it was like a giant toffifee (sp?!). So good. And I had elk mediallions, which was totally out of my confort zone, but man, it was probably one of the best meal I ever had.

I ran for a total of 10 min Wednesday (walk 3, run 1).. I paid the price later that evening and the next day. My leg was really hurting bad and felt like all the tendons and muscles were pulling every which way. Not good. So I took a rest day yesterday and only walked on the treadmill at the gym this morning.

My gym is closed for two weeks! Since it's a city gym, I can go to another facility, but none are convenient for me, so I am going to walk in the mornings and maybe do a dvd or two. Or use the wellness den at work.

AND... I finally bought myself a wii. They were on sale for $130 at Zellers today, so I stood in line and was #17 out of the 200 they were selling per store, so I am excited. A friend is giving me her Jillian Michaels game, and of course now I have to buy the wii fit and every other accessory to outfit my game play. woo!!

Weigh in last night: 179.4. Up one pound. It's TOM time, so I was expecting a gain, but still not thrilled with it.

Not doing wendy this week. Going to try to stay within my 23 points per day (except tomorrow, Chad & I are celebrating our 13 year anniversary a week late at a fancy restaurant).

I've slowly started running again. Monday I ran for a total of 13 minutes at 4.5mph at the gym, but had to stop because my leg hurt. Tuesday morning, I went outside and walked 3, ran 1 for about half an hour. Wednesday, no running, yesterday I ran for 6 minutes at 4.6mph at the gym.. and that's the extent of it. This weekend, I am going to haul the bike back out and give that a shot. I would like to ride my bike to work at least once more before the snow makes an appearance.

Week two weigh in tonight. 178.4. Down another 2.2. Thank you Wendie, I will take it. 4lbs in two weeks, which is a healthy loss.

And now, because I am in the 170s again, I lose a point of food, down to 23 points a day, but I will probably stick with ther wendie plan again.

So I had my weigh in after being on WW for a week. Down 1.8. It's better than gaining, but I am disappointed. I stuck to my points to a t, and I exercised and got lots of water in all week, I wanted more. So I was 180.6. I want to see the 170s again. Hopefully next week!

Alrighty, so I am still obsessed with the scale. When I am not doing WW, I weigh myself every now and again (especially when I knew I was gaining weight). But now that I expect to lose, I am on there in the morning, after work and before bed. And it's only week one. And of course, I see that I am not losing, and don't understand why because I am tracking and definitely staying within my points, and getting some walking in. If I were to find an excuse reason, I would say it would be stress and lack of sleep. I do not sleep alot and I am constantly stressing about things, and some of these things are beyond my control.

Other possible excuses reasons: not getting enough dairy, lean protein and healthy oils. Those have always been a struggle with me. I have no problem getting all my fruits, veggies, whole grains, and liquids in. I have even been remembering to take my multi-vitamin (another struggle), but those 3 things above? I don't try hard enough because I don't want to "waste" my points on a cup of skim milk... but what I did do last night is I had a cup of warm skim milk before bed, and only went over by 1 point. I do eat yogurt daily though, but maybe not enough. 1 cup is a serving, and I usually only have 1/2 a cup.

Meeting number two is tomorrow, with a different leader than last week. We'll see if I like her as much as I liked the one last week (last week's was a fill-in). Will keep you posted on the number. I do not like evening WIs. I am so used to them in the morning and being naked. I am so not going to peel off my clothes at the meeting!

I went to my first weight watchers meeting last night. After subscribing to the online site (on & off) since July 2005, I decided I needed to change things up and stop hiding online and go and meet people with the same struggles as me.

Let me tell you, I was pretty nervous walking in. My biggest fears: I would be the only one there, and if there were a few people, I would be the fattest one there. I squished those two fears the moment I walked through the doors. I explained to the lady that I was an online member and wanted to check out a meeting. She told me I could sit in but would have to leave at the meeting explanation portion, unless I sign up. The leader was so enthusiastic and I met two nice people, so I decided to sign up for 10 weeks.

I got all my materials and got weighed. 182.4. It's not my highest (265), nor my lowest (158), but it is a number I do not want to live with.

I've decided to re-name this LJ "hanging up the fat pants for good" because whenever I start to gain weight, I haul out the one pair of fat pants that I kept before I lost all my weight. They are a size 16 dress pants from old navy. They are not flattering on me. I really want to hang them up for good. I want to get back into the size 12s that I bought for my 158 weight.

I do not have a long-term weight goal yet, that will come, but am going to focus on losing 5% of my current weight which is 9 lbs.

I am really exciting to try this meeting thing, and really hope that getting out of the house once a week will motivate me to stop wearing the fat pants!

( Picture time )